birthdays are one of the most unimportant things celebrated in the social world. why? bcos they are. u can carry out a banquet just to celebrate ur birthday inviting 200 ppl in which u only noe one eighth of them. what a waste of money. yet why do people still celebrate this "joyous occasion"?
people are born with a will of their own. they feel, believe and evolve. we grow bitter or sweet. companionship is one of the solutions to this human characteristic. alone, people feel lonely, i feel lonely, u feel lonely, but isnt our family and friends out there ready to get to ur needs? as lonely as one gets, he or she will try to think of smtg nice. 'birthday? yea. i was born on this date. or rather i think i was. ah heck, whether i was born on this date or not i dont care. i have a birthday.' it is unimportant in the social world, yes, but is one of the most important thing that gives us motivation.
i never thought my birthday was important too. i only thought as long as the birthday person was happy then everything here is fine. i never thought birthdays would affect my state of mind. even when my crush's birthday passed, all i cud was 'happy belated, woman.' then i wud give my usual business smile and end the story wif her only saying 'thank you!' i guess im pretty dishonest to myself. wait, if im dishonest to myself how can i even tell? 'oh deary me', my classmate always say. if i say that i always think im being self-centered. i dont actually noe how to describe myself. i always thought i was self-conscious, arrogant, attention-seeking, helpless noob. but wen i think about my good side, i can only describe myself as a brother.
y i brought the birthday topic up is bcos today is a special friend's birthday. i didnt actually realise i haven enjoyed myself like this for so long. im surprised how celebrating his birthday can make me think so much. its not abt celebrating the birthday is important. its who u celebrate it with.
im currently in the process of changing. i think its for the better, rather than sticking to the easily moody person i think i am. i'll do my best for my family and friends. i wont disappoint u readers either^_^
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Sunday, November 23, 2008
23112008
oh man. i hate waking up early. well, i hate sleeping early either. ah heck, sleeping is my worst enemy and my best friend. waking up early for classes stink, even if ive done it all my life in the 10 years of primary and secondary education. well, maybe some people get it worse than me, im just complaining being the typical human i am.
some people ask y am i always online after hours. well, i watch anime, read manga, play games and do my work. yeah, its a boring life, but its the best ive got. food, oh glorious food, is another part of life a human shud not resist from. i said 'SHUD not', not 'MUST not', for the people watching their diet, because the fact is, food holds more than one third of your life. it doesnt only give you a full stomach, its satisfies your pleasures(not that kind of pleasures), gives you variety, helps during socialising, and maybe completes your character as well.
games are the same. people who dont play at all have no lives. well, games dont only refer to final fantasy or such. your jobs can be a game too, regardless whether they love or hate it. life is not a game, i'll tell you. if you treat your life like a game, ur gonna slip up at one point and its gonna cost you bad. i like games, by the way, but theres a game i really hate playing despite playing it everyday. its the game of life. cos like nearly every boy, we always have our object of affection. yes. the girl i like is like a 'boss' in rpg games and the stage where i reach the point where i want to confess is like when i reach 'bizzaro sephiroth' in final fantasy 7. sometimes i dont even attempt to go for it. haizzz.
my freaking handphone keeps going off by itself. its irritating, really. in the middle of messaging it can just go off, and i can just shout freakish words imaginable (i dont swear, trust me) pisses me off alot. well, no matter what i say i still love my handphone. it has gone thru alot the past three years oreadi. my friends say that its time for me to get a new phone, but its hard for me to abandon this one. it got stolen once, commited suicide many times, made me stangle my friend once, restored peace numerous times, received messages from the girl i like many many times etc. saved my life once too.
so things that are closest to us, we dont feel like they are with us, but when we need them they are usually ready to help us. regardless of friends, handphones, family and all. those arent games. they are life. life is not a game. the difference between life and games is that in games you may know how the story goes. life does not always go how it is predicted. it is how you want it to be.
some people ask y am i always online after hours. well, i watch anime, read manga, play games and do my work. yeah, its a boring life, but its the best ive got. food, oh glorious food, is another part of life a human shud not resist from. i said 'SHUD not', not 'MUST not', for the people watching their diet, because the fact is, food holds more than one third of your life. it doesnt only give you a full stomach, its satisfies your pleasures(not that kind of pleasures), gives you variety, helps during socialising, and maybe completes your character as well.
games are the same. people who dont play at all have no lives. well, games dont only refer to final fantasy or such. your jobs can be a game too, regardless whether they love or hate it. life is not a game, i'll tell you. if you treat your life like a game, ur gonna slip up at one point and its gonna cost you bad. i like games, by the way, but theres a game i really hate playing despite playing it everyday. its the game of life. cos like nearly every boy, we always have our object of affection. yes. the girl i like is like a 'boss' in rpg games and the stage where i reach the point where i want to confess is like when i reach 'bizzaro sephiroth' in final fantasy 7. sometimes i dont even attempt to go for it. haizzz.
my freaking handphone keeps going off by itself. its irritating, really. in the middle of messaging it can just go off, and i can just shout freakish words imaginable (i dont swear, trust me) pisses me off alot. well, no matter what i say i still love my handphone. it has gone thru alot the past three years oreadi. my friends say that its time for me to get a new phone, but its hard for me to abandon this one. it got stolen once, commited suicide many times, made me stangle my friend once, restored peace numerous times, received messages from the girl i like many many times etc. saved my life once too.
so things that are closest to us, we dont feel like they are with us, but when we need them they are usually ready to help us. regardless of friends, handphones, family and all. those arent games. they are life. life is not a game. the difference between life and games is that in games you may know how the story goes. life does not always go how it is predicted. it is how you want it to be.
Friday, November 21, 2008
21112008
"How long before we see each other again?"
What made me think that you were saying it with a nice face?
I pretend that there's nothing bothering me
I'll listen 'till morning as you make more excuses
Because I want us to be connected
I don't even want to see your face along the Nile anymore
No development will come from this, as my cell phone dances
If it's goodbye mail, I want to forget about it
"Hold me tight" but "I want to disappear to somewhere"
Any time that you're talking too much you don't seem to notice
I let you see that "I cry" a little while pretending to be strong
How well did those tears work on you?
Even though "I want to be loved" in my own way, it fills me, but I can't see you
I just have the feeling that I'll never see you again...
I want to tell you that, but I can't find the right words
Maybe it's okay if I lie, but I can't even say "Don't go away"
The strange voice she has when she sneezes
The screwed up face she has when she laughs
Her habit of acting crazy when she's bored.
When our hands come apart
Will you forget someday?
About me?
Maybe I’d rather hear you lie.
What made me think that you were saying it with a nice face?
I pretend that there's nothing bothering me
I'll listen 'till morning as you make more excuses
Because I want us to be connected
I don't even want to see your face along the Nile anymore
No development will come from this, as my cell phone dances
If it's goodbye mail, I want to forget about it
"Hold me tight" but "I want to disappear to somewhere"
Any time that you're talking too much you don't seem to notice
I let you see that "I cry" a little while pretending to be strong
How well did those tears work on you?
Even though "I want to be loved" in my own way, it fills me, but I can't see you
I just have the feeling that I'll never see you again...
I want to tell you that, but I can't find the right words
Maybe it's okay if I lie, but I can't even say "Don't go away"
The strange voice she has when she sneezes
The screwed up face she has when she laughs
Her habit of acting crazy when she's bored.
When our hands come apart
Will you forget someday?
About me?
Maybe I’d rather hear you lie.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
18112008
slow down the pace i always say. ok. maybe i dont always say. or maybe i do say pretty often when running the 2.4km run. excellent. the world is spinning soo round. yet times have gradually moved faster than we could possibly realise it. its the truth, and no joke. moments that hold the happiest times of our lives are quickly dissappearing. memories of the true definition of 'fun' i believe do not exist between minds of children these days. can you imagine the past and how much more fun kids have on those days. its disappearing.
well the reason i wrote this is that i realised my youth, my memories of 'fun' was nothing more than a game of congkak in the kampung times. they had so much more enjoyable lives that make me look like an old man. maybe i am getting old.
lemme tell u a little story.
(nothing to do with the past but has smtg to do with youth)
casey had always admired jamie because she was very outgoing and confident. all the time he watched her playing with her friends while he sat in the corner with his own. he tries to be confident, but always fail to maintain confidence like jamie always did. after a few days he became friends with jamie and later they were well acquainted with each other.
after a while, he suddenly felt nervous when talking to her. he tried to think of every possible reason. was it because his low self-esteem finally caught up with him? or was it due to stress due to work given to him despite having to train in his sport in a tight schedule? no. it couldnt be. he had done all his activities relaxingly until now. then why done his heart ache so much when she wasnt around him? her voice alone would raise his spirit to the extend he wouldnt mind studying or training five days straight.
was it love...?
well the reason i wrote this is that i realised my youth, my memories of 'fun' was nothing more than a game of congkak in the kampung times. they had so much more enjoyable lives that make me look like an old man. maybe i am getting old.
lemme tell u a little story.
(nothing to do with the past but has smtg to do with youth)
casey had always admired jamie because she was very outgoing and confident. all the time he watched her playing with her friends while he sat in the corner with his own. he tries to be confident, but always fail to maintain confidence like jamie always did. after a few days he became friends with jamie and later they were well acquainted with each other.
after a while, he suddenly felt nervous when talking to her. he tried to think of every possible reason. was it because his low self-esteem finally caught up with him? or was it due to stress due to work given to him despite having to train in his sport in a tight schedule? no. it couldnt be. he had done all his activities relaxingly until now. then why done his heart ache so much when she wasnt around him? her voice alone would raise his spirit to the extend he wouldnt mind studying or training five days straight.
was it love...?
Thursday, November 13, 2008
10 things about mua
im tagged by waannii (wani) so i got no choice but to do this thing, power.
RULES AND REGULATIONS
- each player posts 10 weird things/habits abt himself/herself in his/her blog
- after that, write 10 names of ppl of who u wanna tag
- people whose names have been wirtten in the post must do the same thing
- no back tagging
whew.
1. i used to love longans soo much i went to my auntie's hse just to eat them
2. in school, when teachers are teaching, i always imagine im watching a cartoon cos probably the teachers look like cartoons themselves
3. my first word was 'stupid'
4. when chinese ppl speak to me in chinese, all i can do is smile
5. i got a thing for cats
6. the fridge is always attacked by me at night
7. i still want to be a samurai
8. when i play sports, i tend to forget abt my homework
9. i like to label my friends and i let them label me
10. my face is like an anime
people people, im gonna tag u.
1. arif rawi
2. aishah
3. zul
4. hizami
5. aqilah
6. sheilah
7. atthira
8. fairuz
9. afiq
10. faiza
RULES AND REGULATIONS
- each player posts 10 weird things/habits abt himself/herself in his/her blog
- after that, write 10 names of ppl of who u wanna tag
- people whose names have been wirtten in the post must do the same thing
- no back tagging
whew.
1. i used to love longans soo much i went to my auntie's hse just to eat them
2. in school, when teachers are teaching, i always imagine im watching a cartoon cos probably the teachers look like cartoons themselves
3. my first word was 'stupid'
4. when chinese ppl speak to me in chinese, all i can do is smile
5. i got a thing for cats
6. the fridge is always attacked by me at night
7. i still want to be a samurai
8. when i play sports, i tend to forget abt my homework
9. i like to label my friends and i let them label me
10. my face is like an anime
people people, im gonna tag u.
1. arif rawi
2. aishah
3. zul
4. hizami
5. aqilah
6. sheilah
7. atthira
8. fairuz
9. afiq
10. faiza
Saturday, October 25, 2008
25102008
woohoo. life is so great. endless problems and obstacles. excellent.
omg its been a while since ive hung out with my old classmates. they are like, the craziest people (becos ive been meeting other crazy ppl, so my old buddies are still top notch)! yea, it was awesome. first we started by gaying around. then we talk. abt wat? girls lar!!! hahas just kidding. those buggers are just like me. when it comes to girls, CODE RED, CHANGE SUBJECT!!!! hahas, yea right. anyway, there was like a WHOLE LOT OF FOOD. it wud definitely be my heaven... ...if i were to be hungry. then then, we spent most of the time cooking. so i was enjoying the sight and smell if the wth bbq-ed chick chop and the chilli wings wth. yah. cos they were cooking randomly so we alternately changed shifts. tiring lar, but staying in the chef's seat is pretty fun. seriously, you get to control what your friends eat, hahahahahas... then the day came to night and the picture-taking session began. and so, we casually made our million-dollar extravagant faces look like formal idiots in one dollar pictures. how great is that??? plus, the gay pictures piled up. it was idiotically brilliant. then we came to the point where everyone is tired taking pictures, so we all sat down for a normal unusual japanese tutorial section. yes, our friend who speaks japanese taught us a few words. the weird thing is, i recalled that 70% of the words he was asked to teach were words that wud realli get to the user (aka stuff like @#$%) yea. the buggers asked for words that were beyond my ears. seriously. well i am part of the gang :p so i did ask for words like "shi-ne" hahas. hilarious, they were. so i brought home a lot of chicks. yea. spicy red-hot chicks. omg, they were nice. the feel of it when you come in contact with their skin. chicken wings...
yea, sarcasm is an awesome art. but there are limitations to sarcasm, well, thats obvious. i may have crossed the line of sarcasm before so i shall apologize if i had offended any of you readers before. anyway, lets get sarcastic! its after all, one of the greatest things in life. part of my life would have disappeared without it. there you go. it has come to the point where i have no ideas of what to rite. yep, i absolutely have some idea, or rather no idea of how you readers feel. boring, it definitely is.. not.
muahahahaha. now that i have brainwashed your mind, lets get to the extra part of the post now! ^_^
Sarcasm is just one more service we offer.
Harry went out to dinner with his friends Larry, Barry, and Gary. Harry sat across from Gary. At Gary's right, opposite Barry, sat Larry. When the waiter came for their orders, Larry and Barry ordered steak. Gary chose fish, and Harry (who likes to be difficult) ordered like this: "Unless the man at the left of the man opposite the man who ordered fish is not having what the man across from the man at the right of the man at my left is having, then I'll have what the man across from the man at the right of the man opposite me ordered. Otherwise, bring me the fettucine alfredo." Assuming "right" and "left" is from the viewpoint of the diners, what did Harry order?
You can find the answer from the previous post.
omg its been a while since ive hung out with my old classmates. they are like, the craziest people (becos ive been meeting other crazy ppl, so my old buddies are still top notch)! yea, it was awesome. first we started by gaying around. then we talk. abt wat? girls lar!!! hahas just kidding. those buggers are just like me. when it comes to girls, CODE RED, CHANGE SUBJECT!!!! hahas, yea right. anyway, there was like a WHOLE LOT OF FOOD. it wud definitely be my heaven... ...if i were to be hungry. then then, we spent most of the time cooking. so i was enjoying the sight and smell if the wth bbq-ed chick chop and the chilli wings wth. yah. cos they were cooking randomly so we alternately changed shifts. tiring lar, but staying in the chef's seat is pretty fun. seriously, you get to control what your friends eat, hahahahahas... then the day came to night and the picture-taking session began. and so, we casually made our million-dollar extravagant faces look like formal idiots in one dollar pictures. how great is that??? plus, the gay pictures piled up. it was idiotically brilliant. then we came to the point where everyone is tired taking pictures, so we all sat down for a normal unusual japanese tutorial section. yes, our friend who speaks japanese taught us a few words. the weird thing is, i recalled that 70% of the words he was asked to teach were words that wud realli get to the user (aka stuff like @#$%) yea. the buggers asked for words that were beyond my ears. seriously. well i am part of the gang :p so i did ask for words like "shi-ne" hahas. hilarious, they were. so i brought home a lot of chicks. yea. spicy red-hot chicks. omg, they were nice. the feel of it when you come in contact with their skin. chicken wings...
yea, sarcasm is an awesome art. but there are limitations to sarcasm, well, thats obvious. i may have crossed the line of sarcasm before so i shall apologize if i had offended any of you readers before. anyway, lets get sarcastic! its after all, one of the greatest things in life. part of my life would have disappeared without it. there you go. it has come to the point where i have no ideas of what to rite. yep, i absolutely have some idea, or rather no idea of how you readers feel. boring, it definitely is.. not.
muahahahaha. now that i have brainwashed your mind, lets get to the extra part of the post now! ^_^
Sarcasm is just one more service we offer.
Harry went out to dinner with his friends Larry, Barry, and Gary. Harry sat across from Gary. At Gary's right, opposite Barry, sat Larry. When the waiter came for their orders, Larry and Barry ordered steak. Gary chose fish, and Harry (who likes to be difficult) ordered like this: "Unless the man at the left of the man opposite the man who ordered fish is not having what the man across from the man at the right of the man at my left is having, then I'll have what the man across from the man at the right of the man opposite me ordered. Otherwise, bring me the fettucine alfredo." Assuming "right" and "left" is from the viewpoint of the diners, what did Harry order?
You can find the answer from the previous post.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
21102008
im realli pissed 2dae. dunno whether its cos of my pride or ego. well, i like to think, and due to that i think alot, or maybe i think too much.
just now in class, the was a practical lesson and we were to examine the experiment carried out by the lab person. so we were all casually watching and writing down notes. so at one point i noticed that a certain condition that is required for a more accurate reading. of course after a second of thinking i knew why it had to be that way. but while thinking i actually said the reason out loud subconsciously. then my friend commented "yah dont talk too much, i dont really care." well, it may sound insignificant, but i deeply feel i disturbed by him and a sudden surge of anger grew into me. after that i look at him i was thinking "it was my bloody explanation and you, a piece of crap, have no brainpower to accept facts." so i ignored him for the rest of the day, putting on a crappy face.
that dude is my friend, but he pisses me off alot. sometimes i say hes ok, then later i want him out of my face. i dunno, he says words that hurt my pride pretty easily. which is y im asking, isit my pride or my ego? and so im now reflecting as i always do. i wanna feel that all this is chidish, but i realli feel hate towards him now. i dunno. when i think of his face i feel like i dont recognise him anymore, y the heck am i feeling like this only god knows...
btw, for every thing that happens in life, regardless whether good or bad, theres always an effect. its smtg like karma, but malays call it 'hikmah'. im not sure what hikmah is going to appear but im gonna remain patient. well, this probably happened cos i did smtg bad, and this was the way of passing judgement to me. i dunno, there are possibilities.
it seems im also into this kind of destiny stuffs. destiny, yes, refers to the written future, but the future we want can only be written down if we write it. say you are trapped in a house of burning fire, and you are alone. it may sound like your fate is sealed, but what if you run through the debris, burn yourself a little, but manage to get away alive. there. you just wrote your own destiny. when it comes to love (wooo hot topic) u may never know until u actually ask your topic of love of their feelings. well, actually, who am i to talk. i lost my heart to this girl, aww man shes
so crazy and cute (kakaks shuttup) and im so afraid to tell her my feelings. well, all i can say is i will try someday, and if it doesnt work out, then thats destiny, or maybe i work my way into her heart. heee ^_^
answer :
What he essentially said to the waiter was: "If Larry ordered the same thing as Gary, I'll have steak." Since Larry ordered steak and Gary ordered fish, Harry does not get steak.
just now in class, the was a practical lesson and we were to examine the experiment carried out by the lab person. so we were all casually watching and writing down notes. so at one point i noticed that a certain condition that is required for a more accurate reading. of course after a second of thinking i knew why it had to be that way. but while thinking i actually said the reason out loud subconsciously. then my friend commented "yah dont talk too much, i dont really care." well, it may sound insignificant, but i deeply feel i disturbed by him and a sudden surge of anger grew into me. after that i look at him i was thinking "it was my bloody explanation and you, a piece of crap, have no brainpower to accept facts." so i ignored him for the rest of the day, putting on a crappy face.
that dude is my friend, but he pisses me off alot. sometimes i say hes ok, then later i want him out of my face. i dunno, he says words that hurt my pride pretty easily. which is y im asking, isit my pride or my ego? and so im now reflecting as i always do. i wanna feel that all this is chidish, but i realli feel hate towards him now. i dunno. when i think of his face i feel like i dont recognise him anymore, y the heck am i feeling like this only god knows...
btw, for every thing that happens in life, regardless whether good or bad, theres always an effect. its smtg like karma, but malays call it 'hikmah'. im not sure what hikmah is going to appear but im gonna remain patient. well, this probably happened cos i did smtg bad, and this was the way of passing judgement to me. i dunno, there are possibilities.
it seems im also into this kind of destiny stuffs. destiny, yes, refers to the written future, but the future we want can only be written down if we write it. say you are trapped in a house of burning fire, and you are alone. it may sound like your fate is sealed, but what if you run through the debris, burn yourself a little, but manage to get away alive. there. you just wrote your own destiny. when it comes to love (wooo hot topic) u may never know until u actually ask your topic of love of their feelings. well, actually, who am i to talk. i lost my heart to this girl, aww man shes
so crazy and cute (kakaks shuttup) and im so afraid to tell her my feelings. well, all i can say is i will try someday, and if it doesnt work out, then thats destiny, or maybe i work my way into her heart. heee ^_^
answer :
What he essentially said to the waiter was: "If Larry ordered the same thing as Gary, I'll have steak." Since Larry ordered steak and Gary ordered fish, Harry does not get steak.
Monday, October 20, 2008
20102008
yea! wushu training is back! awesome. i was begining to feel stiff watching anime at home. but then again i wasnt able to write many posts cos i was pretty busy these days. i stil got to edit a report and practice math. how great is that. well the practising math part isnt really compulsory, but i cant possibly leave out math to other modules. being good in math does not mean u are naturally talented or smtg. its abt consistency. (well, a prodigy is a different case) if i consistently practise math then theres a better chance i will do well. rather than doing it once a week and forgetting all the formulas thought.
ok, i just got a new mouse recently. seems it sped up my work two fold. really cool. and its cheap! (for a mouse) u noe abt the shops in our neighbourhood areas, normally (this is my opinion) the prices of merchandise are overpriced. yes i understand that our economy is in a crisis, but i only wanna compare it to the old times, when a coke costed 10 cents, maybe cheaper. how the value can rose to a dollar? our historical economy says it all. well, idont have a clue so dont ask me.
smtg has been bugging me. im losing money. and fast. well this is a common problem to us teenagers and our fellow twenteens (age 20+) cos we all wanna go out with our friends like to play pool or karaoke, movies or shopping, its all the same. but there are people as young as 14 who already start working to support their families. whether to pity them or help them is up to ur opinion, but those kind of people who work hard enough to succeed, i salute them. sure, life is tough. but what u do is the one which actually defines u. (sound familiar? batman : it is not what i am but what i do is the one that defines me.) in the end, u will be rewarded, god willing. if not then u just hav to reflect on y u r not rewarded, and work earnestly to succeed. my case : i just gotta diet and save up ^_^
hahas so, another special item i shall add for tonite. may sound sentimental, and maybe unlike me, nut i found it pretty sweet. Enjoy ^_^.
LOVE
I love love
love is fruitful
Love is Kind
Love is Motivating
Love is Comforting
Love is love
I hate Love
Love is painful
Love is heartbreaking
Love is deadly
Love is poisonous
Love is Evil
Hey stop it
Love is like what
I don't know
All I know is Love is Love
so say all you want
But I know Love is
and I love love
I love me & you
Sheikh Hina Yasmeen
ok, i just got a new mouse recently. seems it sped up my work two fold. really cool. and its cheap! (for a mouse) u noe abt the shops in our neighbourhood areas, normally (this is my opinion) the prices of merchandise are overpriced. yes i understand that our economy is in a crisis, but i only wanna compare it to the old times, when a coke costed 10 cents, maybe cheaper. how the value can rose to a dollar? our historical economy says it all. well, idont have a clue so dont ask me.
smtg has been bugging me. im losing money. and fast. well this is a common problem to us teenagers and our fellow twenteens (age 20+) cos we all wanna go out with our friends like to play pool or karaoke, movies or shopping, its all the same. but there are people as young as 14 who already start working to support their families. whether to pity them or help them is up to ur opinion, but those kind of people who work hard enough to succeed, i salute them. sure, life is tough. but what u do is the one which actually defines u. (sound familiar? batman : it is not what i am but what i do is the one that defines me.) in the end, u will be rewarded, god willing. if not then u just hav to reflect on y u r not rewarded, and work earnestly to succeed. my case : i just gotta diet and save up ^_^
hahas so, another special item i shall add for tonite. may sound sentimental, and maybe unlike me, nut i found it pretty sweet. Enjoy ^_^.
LOVE
| I am so in love In love with Joy In love with happiness In love with anger In love with frustration In love with Tears In love with Me. |
I love love
love is fruitful
Love is Kind
Love is Motivating
Love is Comforting
Love is love
I hate Love
Love is painful
Love is heartbreaking
Love is deadly
Love is poisonous
Love is Evil
Hey stop it
Love is like what
I don't know
All I know is Love is Love
so say all you want
But I know Love is
and I love love
I love me & you
Sheikh Hina Yasmeen
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
14102008
remember, u shud nvr underestimate the power of sleeping. really. just when i thought waking up at 7 was too early for a 12 o'clock class, before i knew it, the clock had reached 11.30. so i was like thinking "wth wth omg omg" and so i ended up coming to class 1 hr late. completely unprecedented. so sleeping may be awesome, but one has to organise his sleep to keep track of time and maintain efficiency in the livelihood.(what crap am i spilling?!)
anyway, the begining of the 2nd semester began yesterday. yay. and our lives will become as complicated as ever whether it comes to studies, games, or relationships (relationships dont only refer to couples but friends ad families too). the complication begins. i hear from my friends that i look like i gained a little more weight. and now i am thinking, i wanna run but i dont wanna run. those who noe me probably understand what i mean. ok, to make this clear. i completely hate running. well for one reason is that i can barely sprint 200m. and i cant jog longer than 1.2 km. wah can cry. YET i wanna run cos of the comment "dude, u r gaining weight. u r gaining weight. gaining weight. gaining weight. weight. (echo)" now isit clear???
oh yea. my cca! wushu. awesome i can do splits. i can do the 1st part of 'san tuan nan quan' realli awesome. but i notice that my in this routine i can add more strength into it. so i asked my friend (the expert) if im realli doing the routine correctly. know what he said? "wah starting oreadi wrong" so i was like aaaaaahh. but in the end he still taught me how to do it properly. hes cool man!
so just now i was listening to songs and thinking about social issues (a-hem) then i on-ed a song which i hear everyday. "ayat-ayat cinta" by rossa. u know that i lurve this song like siao, but 2dae when i heard it, it was like wah suddenly the song gave me this feeling. like the song is so beautiful its scary. but really, u listen to the song's instrumental part and the beautiful voice fuse in a rare sensation. absolutely a 10 star brilliance.
anyway, the begining of the 2nd semester began yesterday. yay. and our lives will become as complicated as ever whether it comes to studies, games, or relationships (relationships dont only refer to couples but friends ad families too). the complication begins. i hear from my friends that i look like i gained a little more weight. and now i am thinking, i wanna run but i dont wanna run. those who noe me probably understand what i mean. ok, to make this clear. i completely hate running. well for one reason is that i can barely sprint 200m. and i cant jog longer than 1.2 km. wah can cry. YET i wanna run cos of the comment "dude, u r gaining weight. u r gaining weight. gaining weight. gaining weight. weight. (echo)" now isit clear???
oh yea. my cca! wushu. awesome i can do splits. i can do the 1st part of 'san tuan nan quan' realli awesome. but i notice that my in this routine i can add more strength into it. so i asked my friend (the expert) if im realli doing the routine correctly. know what he said? "wah starting oreadi wrong" so i was like aaaaaahh. but in the end he still taught me how to do it properly. hes cool man!
so just now i was listening to songs and thinking about social issues (a-hem) then i on-ed a song which i hear everyday. "ayat-ayat cinta" by rossa. u know that i lurve this song like siao, but 2dae when i heard it, it was like wah suddenly the song gave me this feeling. like the song is so beautiful its scary. but really, u listen to the song's instrumental part and the beautiful voice fuse in a rare sensation. absolutely a 10 star brilliance.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
12102008
im kinda in a twist right now. to not know how to feel? i bet u all know that feeling. if i ask u probably u will answer that this is a part of life which it will eventually go thru. but isit really neccessary? of all the issues gg on at home i nvr really thot this wud be such a big fuss amongst my familly... the truth is... my cat is getting fat... T-T
well, i haven really been socialling much despite the raya until i met up with my friends! it was a great raya amongst ourselves. well, i felt it was incomplete bcos i cudnt see the person i really wanted to see. aww man :D yea. bcos it felt like smtg was missing too... and right now u readers are thinking "this is another thing u have to go thru in life, u oaf?!" hahas. but its funny how part of me rejects this and another part of me is able to embrace it. well, the third part of me says, "what happens, happens." and he goes lepak the whole day. AND SO, i follow my third self... lepak is good. heeee.
well this time im writing right before the golden sun ascends to the depths of the beautiful azure sky. basically... dawn. i wonder if im able to see the person todae. well, that is up to god's will. besides, nothing will come if i just sit and sulk one corner in my room yea? i gotta take action, or at least move if i want something to happen to the world outside my home. i gotta go with the flow until the moment's right then probably things will turn out interesting.
i wanna play game. but if i play games i wont be able to concentrate on other things. what a dillema... but seriously, if you dont play games you'll be missing a part of life. just like anime. u noe CODE GEASS??? this anime really got to me. and at the end, i started crying... BAAAAAH!!!
(eh, arent i supposed to say 'waaaaah' instead of 'BAAAAAH!!!'?) but really, at the end @#$%^^&*^%$####. (NO SPOILERS!) wheeeeeeee.
so dats all i guess. nitey ^_^
well, i haven really been socialling much despite the raya until i met up with my friends! it was a great raya amongst ourselves. well, i felt it was incomplete bcos i cudnt see the person i really wanted to see. aww man :D yea. bcos it felt like smtg was missing too... and right now u readers are thinking "this is another thing u have to go thru in life, u oaf?!" hahas. but its funny how part of me rejects this and another part of me is able to embrace it. well, the third part of me says, "what happens, happens." and he goes lepak the whole day. AND SO, i follow my third self... lepak is good. heeee.
well this time im writing right before the golden sun ascends to the depths of the beautiful azure sky. basically... dawn. i wonder if im able to see the person todae. well, that is up to god's will. besides, nothing will come if i just sit and sulk one corner in my room yea? i gotta take action, or at least move if i want something to happen to the world outside my home. i gotta go with the flow until the moment's right then probably things will turn out interesting.
i wanna play game. but if i play games i wont be able to concentrate on other things. what a dillema... but seriously, if you dont play games you'll be missing a part of life. just like anime. u noe CODE GEASS??? this anime really got to me. and at the end, i started crying... BAAAAAH!!!
(eh, arent i supposed to say 'waaaaah' instead of 'BAAAAAH!!!'?) but really, at the end @#$%^^&*^%$####. (NO SPOILERS!) wheeeeeeee.
so dats all i guess. nitey ^_^
Thursday, October 9, 2008
09102008
frustrating as it is, the moon disappeared at precisely 1234h. yea. i was enjoying the spotlight from the moon at the view of my room, until it was covered my the cloud. how unfortunate.
telling you this makes you think im pretty full of myself. i gotta admit, thats one of my traits. heeee, im not realli shy to say things about myself. in the mirror i will look, when my friend asks, i will answer "this is called 'self-appreciation', my friend" and we end up laughing. sometimes its hard for me to say out things about people that i acknowledge in them. probably its bcos of my ego. having them to be better than me makes me feel inferior, and i would probably end up acting cool, like i dont realli care about the person. thats how i probably picked up the trait of 'self-appreciation' hahas.
but i really am a good guy! and by saying this i probably gave you a few opinions about me. i am proud, am not humble, seem to be a self-prociamed goodie-two-shoes, may probably be a hypocrite, or basically act like an idiot to believe what i said. and now you will think i am an analytical hypocrite. well hahas, i onlie brought this up cos it looked like fun. so basically i didnt really mean anything that i say. or probably you will stick to the opinion that im am a bloody analytical hypocrite.
playing around with your head was fun!
just kidding!
i love the BOOST chocalate bar, you know, the one from cadburry. the one with nuts is awesome! you just have to try it, you will feel like youre eating a snickers bar covered with caburry chocolate oh how i crave it. well, try some tea after the chocolate. it helps ^_^
telling you this makes you think im pretty full of myself. i gotta admit, thats one of my traits. heeee, im not realli shy to say things about myself. in the mirror i will look, when my friend asks, i will answer "this is called 'self-appreciation', my friend" and we end up laughing. sometimes its hard for me to say out things about people that i acknowledge in them. probably its bcos of my ego. having them to be better than me makes me feel inferior, and i would probably end up acting cool, like i dont realli care about the person. thats how i probably picked up the trait of 'self-appreciation' hahas.
but i really am a good guy! and by saying this i probably gave you a few opinions about me. i am proud, am not humble, seem to be a self-prociamed goodie-two-shoes, may probably be a hypocrite, or basically act like an idiot to believe what i said. and now you will think i am an analytical hypocrite. well hahas, i onlie brought this up cos it looked like fun. so basically i didnt really mean anything that i say. or probably you will stick to the opinion that im am a bloody analytical hypocrite.
playing around with your head was fun!
just kidding!
i love the BOOST chocalate bar, you know, the one from cadburry. the one with nuts is awesome! you just have to try it, you will feel like youre eating a snickers bar covered with caburry chocolate oh how i crave it. well, try some tea after the chocolate. it helps ^_^
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
08102008
yay! three days of raya! a-hem.
animes like code geass or gundam really show how politics go in the anime world. the hero is a soldier in a particular army and his best friend is an elite of the enemy. they fight unknowingly of who theyre really fighting with and end up hurting each other. when their friends die, they will blame each other and end up fighting. both armies want the same thing yet they cant accpet each other. then when the hero knows he is fighting his best friend, he goes all out and when hes about to win, he hesitates for 1 second and ended up getting beaten up. both nations still continue fighting. (of course until the hero's side wins) this is their politics.
nice plot, but to think the real life people cant even learn from mistakes shown in animes, themselves. maybe even i have done smtg and not even know what it is. ignorant i am. but still, the anime is awesome.
work it or not to work it. that is the question. (at least for tonite)
my friend invited me to join this company selling water products and etc. well, im sure it well affects the course im studying in but the thing is i dont really wanna be working and schoolling at the same time. school starts next monday and i dont wanna do as badly as the first semester. i admit that i slacked the first semester, thinking that poly is all about fun and games. it was my mistake, and deeply regreted it. when my dad saw my results i just broke. deep inside i can feel his sadness of my incompetence. and my mom was also really disappointed. i dont wanna see them like that. like when i failed tests in secondary school. so im gonna give it my all for the exams. for my parents, for god, and for my future god willing.
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
07102008
lelouch and light yagami are so what-the-hell similar, well, with the exception that lelouch doesnt kill people as badly as yagami does.
u noe, the funny thing about holidays is that they actually wear you out, even if you stay at home all day. cos whenever you go out, theres a high chance of you walking and standing for hours in a mall, or sitting for hours in a movie theatre. my friends go work during the holidays and that may actually give twice the burden. the last time i had the job (well it was my first job) i actually got struck by a fever. it was on a holiday too. probably its bcos when one thinks he/she is on a holiday, they subconsciously lower their body strength as they feel theyre supposed to be in a 'holiday mood' well, in my opinion at least.
and so i find myself in another tiring, nothing to do holiday, where when i stay in my room too long, my parents will threaten to take my lappy, and if i stay out of the house too long, they will say the world outside is brainwashing me. tell me, in what way have i been brainwashed??? really, even if it was with my cousin they will still say the say thing. well, thats what parents are. but sometimes theyre pretty cool too. (until they start telling stories about your mysterious past to others) my dad is an awesome cameraman who is one who has lots of experiences in life. he experienced hardships, nobility, and hes a pretty good cook. (well once in a while, mom does most of the cooking) hes one of the few i respect (and when i respect the person, that means the person is like wah *angel sounds*) tho he is a little stubborn. my mom is pretty cool too. when someone asks for help, she'll give it her all without complaint! but when the person doesnt act appreciative of her help or others who have helped the person, shes got a pretty sharp mouth.
heeeee ^_^
well u can say todays post is pretty short so i'll extend it with something nice that i found on the internet.
u noe, the funny thing about holidays is that they actually wear you out, even if you stay at home all day. cos whenever you go out, theres a high chance of you walking and standing for hours in a mall, or sitting for hours in a movie theatre. my friends go work during the holidays and that may actually give twice the burden. the last time i had the job (well it was my first job) i actually got struck by a fever. it was on a holiday too. probably its bcos when one thinks he/she is on a holiday, they subconsciously lower their body strength as they feel theyre supposed to be in a 'holiday mood' well, in my opinion at least.
and so i find myself in another tiring, nothing to do holiday, where when i stay in my room too long, my parents will threaten to take my lappy, and if i stay out of the house too long, they will say the world outside is brainwashing me. tell me, in what way have i been brainwashed??? really, even if it was with my cousin they will still say the say thing. well, thats what parents are. but sometimes theyre pretty cool too. (until they start telling stories about your mysterious past to others) my dad is an awesome cameraman who is one who has lots of experiences in life. he experienced hardships, nobility, and hes a pretty good cook. (well once in a while, mom does most of the cooking) hes one of the few i respect (and when i respect the person, that means the person is like wah *angel sounds*) tho he is a little stubborn. my mom is pretty cool too. when someone asks for help, she'll give it her all without complaint! but when the person doesnt act appreciative of her help or others who have helped the person, shes got a pretty sharp mouth.
heeeee ^_^
well u can say todays post is pretty short so i'll extend it with something nice that i found on the internet.
I'm sure that the heart I left behind |
Exhausted, without the strength to search |
If it's so small, I wonder if I can see it even now? |
As we live on, |
The days pass by and change, |
Overcoming that made-up scheme, we live the present, |
If we can find the rhythm of time, we can fly once again |
We live our lives |
We live our lives |
We live our lives standing frozen to the spot, |
Monday, October 6, 2008
06102008
u noe, the reason the name of my blog is 'myblogtonite' is cos i, well, only write posts at nite! (wateva i do in the day is a secret) anywaes we're already in the middle of raya, and im planning to go visiting with my friends. its really sad. im actually planning to go out with a group of friends on a thursday. but later i heard from another group of friends that they wanna go on that particular thursday... bah what can i do? im onlie human!
so whenever im faced with all these problems, i draw manga and forget all about em. really. last time it went to the extent that i nearly missed an examination! well, i did miss it. (came an hour late so i wasnt allowed to participate in the exam) hahas. so in the end my lecturer/saviour arranged a make up examination. i was like wah *angel sounds* and then i took my test and ended up doing really badly T-T
den den den i spend time at home counting money (hey, its raya!) or acting out my manga. then i act as if i was the hero of the manga. for example "AHHH! Uh- there has to be way to beat his armor!" den i would switch to the villain "HAHAHA! dont even think of trying to beat my armor! It will cost your LIFE!!" den i pretend im swordfighting with em, i pretend to get beaten up pretty badly, to the extent i get "stabbed" on my should (if i get stabbed in the heart, the story would end) and so... the turning point! the hero suddenly awakens his full power after blabbering about protecting his so-called friends. den he kills the villain and live happily ever after. with his girlfriend of course.
doing all that acting takes me out pretty quickly, so its off to the showers. wen i get back to the bed its either anime or game. or ko. or maybe manga(drawing is included). hiyah. expecting calls or messages which will come eventually... but waiting for the bloody phone to even get near me gets on my nerves. "IM THE BLOODY HELL BORED!!!!!" is what i would be thinking staring at the phone like dat. wen time comes, people will visit. and so ppl on msn will be ignored ^_^
im a pretty awesome dude aint i?
so whenever im faced with all these problems, i draw manga and forget all about em. really. last time it went to the extent that i nearly missed an examination! well, i did miss it. (came an hour late so i wasnt allowed to participate in the exam) hahas. so in the end my lecturer/saviour arranged a make up examination. i was like wah *angel sounds* and then i took my test and ended up doing really badly T-T
den den den i spend time at home counting money (hey, its raya!) or acting out my manga. then i act as if i was the hero of the manga. for example "AHHH! Uh- there has to be way to beat his armor!" den i would switch to the villain "HAHAHA! dont even think of trying to beat my armor! It will cost your LIFE!!" den i pretend im swordfighting with em, i pretend to get beaten up pretty badly, to the extent i get "stabbed" on my should (if i get stabbed in the heart, the story would end) and so... the turning point! the hero suddenly awakens his full power after blabbering about protecting his so-called friends. den he kills the villain and live happily ever after. with his girlfriend of course.
doing all that acting takes me out pretty quickly, so its off to the showers. wen i get back to the bed its either anime or game. or ko. or maybe manga(drawing is included). hiyah. expecting calls or messages which will come eventually... but waiting for the bloody phone to even get near me gets on my nerves. "IM THE BLOODY HELL BORED!!!!!" is what i would be thinking staring at the phone like dat. wen time comes, people will visit. and so ppl on msn will be ignored ^_^
im a pretty awesome dude aint i?
Sunday, October 5, 2008
05102008
i cant help but watch romantic comedies nowadays. i think they're pretty cool. the concept of one boy having many girls to chase after him really sells out. plus, normally the many girls that chase after him are the hottest in the anime. for that reason, the boy gets beaten up often. why? cos the girls fight over him (or rather fight on him) and the boys would beat him up for stealing the hottest women. funny really.
its not so bad now. i dont feel like emoing for a long time. probably ive moved on. i guess i decided to write this blog only when i am secured. well... i am, arent i? but ive been bored the whole of september. ok, not so bored... cos it was the fasting month and i didnt really have the strength to go on hyper mode. ah i miss classes. nvr thought id say that. waking up early sucks, you gotta admit. staying up late doing nothing really kicks me in the knee.
games young and old (i mean new and old) are pretty fun if you play them alternately. cos sometimes when you play an old game, you will feel as if you are bored with it (in malay we call it 'jelak') and when you play an extremely new game after a week, it wouldnt be new. so my style of playing new games is to change games constantly so the thrill of games would last even longer.
my friend has been putting in jokes inside his blog, i think his idea is pretty cool so im thinking of a new idea to add in my blog. since im seriously low tech, i dont really know much about customizing blogs but at least i can do a thing or two... but im lazy to learn :P what a setback. hahas somewhat being low tech can be pretty convinient (did i spell that right?) cos i dont really have to do complicated stuff all day. AWESOME. ive out all my pride into my beloved sports and still dream of being a sportsman (i wish). coolness.
sleep tonight before you are slept on?
G.O.O.D. N.I.G.H.T.
its not so bad now. i dont feel like emoing for a long time. probably ive moved on. i guess i decided to write this blog only when i am secured. well... i am, arent i? but ive been bored the whole of september. ok, not so bored... cos it was the fasting month and i didnt really have the strength to go on hyper mode. ah i miss classes. nvr thought id say that. waking up early sucks, you gotta admit. staying up late doing nothing really kicks me in the knee.
games young and old (i mean new and old) are pretty fun if you play them alternately. cos sometimes when you play an old game, you will feel as if you are bored with it (in malay we call it 'jelak') and when you play an extremely new game after a week, it wouldnt be new. so my style of playing new games is to change games constantly so the thrill of games would last even longer.
my friend has been putting in jokes inside his blog, i think his idea is pretty cool so im thinking of a new idea to add in my blog. since im seriously low tech, i dont really know much about customizing blogs but at least i can do a thing or two... but im lazy to learn :P what a setback. hahas somewhat being low tech can be pretty convinient (did i spell that right?) cos i dont really have to do complicated stuff all day. AWESOME. ive out all my pride into my beloved sports and still dream of being a sportsman (i wish). coolness.
sleep tonight before you are slept on?
G.O.O.D. N.I.G.H.T.
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