27072010

Arif got poked by a sword.
Its all good people!
Arif's well alive and healthy.
Well, that's bad news for some people.
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ANYWAY

I think I've been cursed.
Things i used to do, I do no more.
Its like my whole daily life routine is no more the same.
Am I sick?
Last time, last time I used to go and hang out in the clubhouse from class dismissal to sundown, maybe even later.
I used to walk down the path at Food Court 5 oh so everyday but i do no more.
I used to think life has its fixed culture.

But now I choose my own culture.
I choose a culture thats weird, but strangely happy.

When I think of the kind of person I should be now, I realised I come from a culture born from an open(well half the time) Muslim family, a malengchindian(rojak) language, a Singapore(kiasu) way of life, ruled under PAP(men in white), with Singapore's economic status(oh my god, is that fifty cents?!), and the Singapore Ministry of Education's teachings(brainwash).

I've faced all that facts myself.
Some of my friends are weird thus so am I.
My dad lets me choose what I want as a toddler thus I grew up being indecisive.
Heard the story of retrenchment as a 7 year old and was traumatised by it.
Even till now.

I wanna create my own culture. My way of life.

A person I met says I'm weird.
Then he uses a rubber band and shoots it at me.
SNAP
It hits my face.
My friends saw what he did but stayed down.
I simply looked at him.
Imagine what would've happened had I been my old self.
BLOODSHED man.
Sometimes it's hard to reason with humans.
With that guy who rubber band-ed me?
I think that guy was pretty lonely.
Oh well.

Had humans in this world know more kindness.
This is my wish to mankind.

26072010

Ah, my body's gonna break soon. For some reason for the past few days i felt like my bones could just snap any moment. I feel heavy, its like my muscles tend to not listen to what i tell them to do. This sucks, especially when you are in the midst of the peak time of work with many people counting on you. I cant even find a joke to crack. Ah, I'm gonna faint soon.

I have a confession to make. I'm tired. Sometimes even at home I feel like the whole world's my enemy. Sometimes I don't wanna go out of my room where I can't go to the toilet without getting lectured at. The days I'm working my ass off in my room and the moment I leave the room I'm called lazy, or smbody's grumbling that I'm not being helpful at all. I can't bloody help it. If I don't wanna go out then don't force me. I don't need you to stand there making me feel like I'm the villain of the house. I'm in my room so I can freaking improve myself so I can help the household in the future. Is that so damn difficult to understand?! I'm just sick of it all.

Shit la, I'm pissed oreadi. I need to cool down. Everyone gets moodswings. I need some pikachu. That's right, pikachu.

070710

URGH.
Sometimes I think assignments are living things.
They keep reproducing over and over again.
I'm starting to think humans and assignments can get married.
Oh well.

Nowadays I tend to go home taking the Joo Koon train if i leave school before 5.
Its obviously because I wanna sit down throughout my trip home.
Define "lazy" -> It is a term to describe Fadhils.
I don't expect too much from trains to leave me a seat.
That's why there are people like me who are will to use half an hour just to ensure he gets a seat from one end of the island to the other.
Well, me being a good guy(ahem) am willing to give up my seat for the one who needs it more than me. Aren't I a great person???(narcissist mode)

Ahhh.
My laptop's adaptor is broken.
I don't have time to go Jurong East to fix it.
So now I'm using my dad's laptop.
Isn't he nice??? (that's where my greatness came from)
And I reach home today, and there's actually food!
Mommy's awesome too!
Continuing on to me lappy,
I can't access to my anime, music and so.
Worse of all, I can't access to my schoolwork.
It feels like I just got hit by a Hadouken.
So I'm doing what I can to make up for it.
Speaking of which, blogging does not count as "all I can"

ok random pic and off I go^^