12062011

I guess many things happened this year so far.
Its been the most challenging year ever.
Many things around this country and its people going thru changes.
All i expect to see is a better tomorrow.

This year I learnt what "feeling low" is all about.
I have never felt more nervous than any time in my life.
This excitement, I have not experienced before.
The year began more sad than I've ever been in my entire life.
Heartache has never been this painful.
Loss has never been this terrible.

Funny.
As long as I can remember, I have never cried so badly in my life as long as I can remember.
This year, I guess all those accumulated tears just gushed out.
It's not a bad thing.
I knew I've always been emotional since young.
The most memorable stuff are always the sadder things.
Fighting against life.
Mistakes were intentionally made.
I guess this is what growing up is all about.
All we need is just someone who we can hold on to.
No, the journey to find that someone is nothing easy.
But things won't be sad all the time.
Happy memories are sometimes forgotten.
But at least I know they happened.
At least life is not a lie.

Sakit hati pikir pasal dia.
Kalau dia tak ada, tak payah ku rasa rindu macam gini.
Nak cuba happy pon, kawan semua sibuk.
Kat rumah, hanya tahu main game saja.
Kat luar, duit hilang macam kocek berlobang.
Nak exercise, malas pula.
Tapi bila berpikir pasal apa nak buat, dia sentiasa dlm kepala.
Tak paham dia ah.
Suka pon tak boleh buat apape.
Dah kena reject.
Tak tahu macam mana nak menang hati dia.
Dia dah pergi negeri Cina.
Datang balik tak ada plan.
Kalau ada pon aku penakot.
Tak pernah tahu apa dia berpikir.
Terlalu susah nak paham.
Bila kat Cameron macam mata air pula.
Sampai rumah jadi kawan biasa.
Rindu lah.
Sakit hati betul.