05052012

Ok the previous post was an unintentional lie, I didn't think I'd have to stay in pasir laba at that point of time. Anyway, all is good, I'm still alive alhamdulillah, and I'm left about a month and a half before getting posted out. Ok, I am definitely not a good people person. I don't know when is the right time to joke with my camp mates and sometimes I even respond negatively. But I'm doing my best, honest! Nowadays they keep pronounciating my name in a funny way. Faddhieu, if I could spell it. I think it came about from a certain wushu friend of mine also called the drunk old man. Maybe cos of the chinese accent=/ well, I kinda like the name though. So I've been through many things this past few weeks, from almost dying from hyperventilation (more than once) to flying on a helicopter. It was pretty awesome, not counting the I nearly died part. Very tiring, but a rewarding experience. I just miss the people who I used to see outside like my wushu peeps, my makassar sayangs, andalus buddies(been too long, really) and many different grps Ok going off topic from the army experience with all the sentimentality going on. At present, I'm deciding what should I do in my life. I know there's a deep voice inside of me saying that I have to be an enviromentalist. I want to take the first step forward to this direction. For starters, I'm starting ro widen out my network and hopefully I can reach to people who can help me achieve that. I have to work hard and not waste any time. I will learn what I can even if I have to serve my duties for the nation. Being booked in doesn't mean that there aren't any knowledge at all. Well I have to admit, although it sounds stupid, I am trying to find a girlfriend during my ns time. My dream is to travel the world but things would be sweeter if I had someone with me to write a new legend? My confidence with girls is pretty low, and even if i had some experience, it is hard to find one to go serioua with(wth serious with?) I hope destiny will pull me together with that girl. I guess the most important thing is still the future. In this life, there's no meaning untill you are willing to take risks and make mistakes that is needed for you to grow stronger. Everyone goes somewhere because they work at something. They try, many fail, but others move on. I wanna attain my happiness, just like many others. It will be a long and fruitful journey. Ciaossu