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i guess all im good at is lazing around. heh.
its not like im a hard worker, nor a natural genius.
u can just call me a kid whose path have slightly dented.
ok maybe not slightly.
probably its a bad habit picked up after all these long 17 years.
i didnt grow up a saint, nor did i became a devil.
im just lazy. thats all.

OK.
having to do stupid things can realli get back to you pretty bad.
like to say i ran away after seeing a dead body rather than reporting to the police. ceh.
besides, decisions cant possibly be made on the spot when you are given fatal choices. for one thing, it could affect your own life or the life of others. it could save the world, it could destroy it.
we're only human for god's sake.
there are some things that clearly show the correct path but people such as myself are too lazy to take it. my excuse? "its too troublesome." do i sound like shikamaru?
but in life people take on these duties just so they can move on.
the famous "adult" life i suppose.
frankly, i'd prefer to stay a kid. preferbly at the age of 16.
no, it has nothing to do with "sweet sixteen", but it seems i like being in my last secondary school years. but technically, if i stay sixteen all my life it wouldn't be called "my last secondary school years" and it wouldn't be meaningful.

the word "last" can change the entire meaning of a sentence.
for example:-
"This is my year in secondary school," says Fidel.
this sentence can mean that Fidel believes that he would do well in that particular year in secondary school.
whereas:-
"This is my last year in secondary school," says Alex.
if you look at it, the sentence is just plain. if you give it a meaning, you can see a hint of sadness and inspiration. whether the person is trying to hide it or not.

so, i guess i havent felt the urgency to take my life seriously. to seriously have fun, or to seriously do all out on work. so, i'll stay a failure if i dont do anything abt it.