12062011

I guess many things happened this year so far.
Its been the most challenging year ever.
Many things around this country and its people going thru changes.
All i expect to see is a better tomorrow.

This year I learnt what "feeling low" is all about.
I have never felt more nervous than any time in my life.
This excitement, I have not experienced before.
The year began more sad than I've ever been in my entire life.
Heartache has never been this painful.
Loss has never been this terrible.

Funny.
As long as I can remember, I have never cried so badly in my life as long as I can remember.
This year, I guess all those accumulated tears just gushed out.
It's not a bad thing.
I knew I've always been emotional since young.
The most memorable stuff are always the sadder things.
Fighting against life.
Mistakes were intentionally made.
I guess this is what growing up is all about.
All we need is just someone who we can hold on to.
No, the journey to find that someone is nothing easy.
But things won't be sad all the time.
Happy memories are sometimes forgotten.
But at least I know they happened.
At least life is not a lie.

Sakit hati pikir pasal dia.
Kalau dia tak ada, tak payah ku rasa rindu macam gini.
Nak cuba happy pon, kawan semua sibuk.
Kat rumah, hanya tahu main game saja.
Kat luar, duit hilang macam kocek berlobang.
Nak exercise, malas pula.
Tapi bila berpikir pasal apa nak buat, dia sentiasa dlm kepala.
Tak paham dia ah.
Suka pon tak boleh buat apape.
Dah kena reject.
Tak tahu macam mana nak menang hati dia.
Dia dah pergi negeri Cina.
Datang balik tak ada plan.
Kalau ada pon aku penakot.
Tak pernah tahu apa dia berpikir.
Terlalu susah nak paham.
Bila kat Cameron macam mata air pula.
Sampai rumah jadi kawan biasa.
Rindu lah.
Sakit hati betul.

Jordan Hill - Remember Me This Way

An old song that I've always loved...


Remember me this way
Jordan Hill

Every now and then
We find a special friend
Who never lets us down
Who understands it all
Reaches out each time you fall
You're the best friend that I've found
I know you can't stay
A part of you will never ever go away
Your heart will stay

I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
That life would just be kind
To such a gentle mind
If you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way

I don't need eyes to see
The love you bring to me
No matter where I go
And I know that you'll be there
Forever more apart of time, you're everywhere
I'll always cares

And I'll be right behind your shoulder watching you
I'll be standing by your side and all you do
And I won't ever leave
As long as you believe
You just believe

Here Without You

Here Without You
3 Doors Down

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me, yeah

The miles just keep rolling
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me

Everything I know and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done
It gets hard but it won't take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me

24082010

Bed Hair Day.

For your information I spent today mostly at home sleeping.
Its not that much of a surprise when you think in terms of a SP student.
Now is the YOG holiday period and people who have not much to do my understand.
Well, its not like I don't have much to do, today's just happens to be a lazy day.

Ah, I just remembered that I have to send my friend this thing for our FYP report.
So you can wait a little right??
A picture for you to think about while I do my things.


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5 hours later
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Ok, I'm back. Actually I'm too tired to blog now. BUT WHAT THE HECK.
It seems I took abit too long on my work and thinking and manga.
Yes, its very hard to resist manga.
I'm trying my best.
I'm really really sleepy now but there's only an hour before 5 o'clock, in which the time when I'm supposed to eat before fasting during the day.

Oh yea.
The reason why tonight's post is called bed hair day is because I had bed hair.
For the whole day.
Ok, at least until halfway in NTUC.
Well of course, I had been dead asleep most of the day.
Just now I went to Eastpoint with that hair.
I didn't really care how it looked.
Its just that I get this bouncy feeling on my head the whole time.
That top picture didn't really show my bed hair, but boy was it bouncy.
My hair gets flat about an hour after leaving the bed(unless i showered)
ok fine i admit going to NTUC directly after waking up.
So I guess it flattened while i was marketing.
Luckily I have awesome hair.

Hey.
What's up with people, huh?
They all have their own desires and thanks to that parties emerge.
"Parties of different opinions"
All my life I always try to understand people and not be one-sided.
Nowadays I feel like I'm contradicting myself.
Sometimes I even realise that I lie to myself.
I look around at one angle, and then I notice that I worry about how people look at me than how I look at myself.
I feel that I put unnecessary pressure on myself.
Look how I became hesitant. Indecisive. Incapable.
"Change" is a horrible word.
Its a tiny word easy to pronounce.
Its a word that gives hope to people.
Yet its a word that hurts people to achieve what they want.
It is a word that challenges people.
It is a word that makes people struggle.
And "change" changes people.
That is how it is also beautiful.
And how I desire it.

Oh well.
I'm gonna endure for the next one hour.
Ciaossu.

21082010

Today is a day that we have lost a brother, a friend, and a beloved companion. Until now he has served his purpose, although with mishaps sometimes, but others with grace. He has opened my world and helped me in my tasks. He listened to my words and connected me to others'. Today I have lost... my handphone.




Anyway, just now was nearly so screwed up. I was waiting at Tampines MRT Station, alone, and with a broken handphone. Apparently out of 5 guys I'm supposed to meet, 4 of them said they'd be late. Thus I anxiously waited for the last guy, hoping that there won't be other problems.

5 minutes past the promised time.
Nothing.
So I thought "ok this is fine, its just 5 minutes... i hope he aint late or anything, if he messages or calls, i won't know no crap"

10 minutes past the promised time.
Nothing.
So I thought "ah, ive been been an hour late(not proud of it) and my phone's broken so i cant do no crap, seriously."

15 minutes past the promised time
He arrived.(If it was anime, I cudve said 5 hours later...)


Sooo, why was I waiting for the guy??
Cos it's Janice's birthday party today!
And we were meeting to buy her present!
WOOHOO!
Well, yea. The party's at a chalet in Pasir Ris, relatively "near" to my house.
Lotsa food, people, drinks, people, games, people, and also kids! Not to mention people.
I ate ALOT. When no one was looking. ALOT. Three plates, I believe.
Yea.
We played in one of the rooms alot.
From gay-wrestling to monopoly deal to mahjongg.
At one point I accidentally fell of the bed and thumped my head on the floor.
Good thing I'm a hardhead.
So many things happened including a guy holding another guy's hands during the phototaking time and after that came the talking.
Then theres cake and all, a typical fun birtday party €D.
Then theres the go home part.
I really wanted to stay.
But I'm fasting so it is inconvenient to stay away from from home for me and my family some reason.
So I sadly said goodbye, wrote smtg to Janice and ran to catch up with the people who left me behind (wah lao weh)

And then at home there's pizza... WHAT!?


Training rocks man. I'm addicted.
Maybe I'm becoming more SM than I thought.
JIAYOU WUSHU PEAPLE!!!
Ciaossu.

17082010

I wonder.
What gives me this motivation during this fasting period.
It's like I have an excess of energy(if I'm not training during the day).
Oh yes, I have to study.
After all the tests are coming in like 2 weeks?
Sheesh I'm a slacker.

"So how was the YOG holidays so far?"
Half of it was spent training(it so much 'fun' D=)
Finally FYP completed(I love my partner, he's awesome)
Some outings.
JYOG.
FASTING.
It's been pretty wicked if you asked me.

haiz.
suddenly u re-appear. next u sick.
ok just kidding.

I got my bed back.
My room's still in a mess tho.
I oughta help my mom restructure my room.
But I can't help but go out too often.
I need to learn to stay home. Geez.


MANU 3 - 0 NEWCASTLE

Yea this pisses of anti-manU ppl.
suck on it dudes.

Heck, I'm too random.
PS: I ain't gay. Love comes in many forms.

Ciaossu. Love ya all.

01082010

paiiin.
my neck hurts every time i try to lift it.

this weekend has been a "blast"
little time to do schoolwork.
i msged my fyp partner but he doesnt reply.
haiz.
im looking at the prices of what i think will be needed for our fyp.
not yet finished tho.
and im worried he doesnt tell me about another assignment too, for green buildings.
i cant let him work on his own.
i feel pretty left out.
and its unfair.
i shud talk to him 2moro.

ahh my bone's gonna break soon.
my whole body is sore.
my neck's gonna snap too.
i had to force myself out of bed to shower.
and the entire time out of the house, i had to tolerate the pain.
i find it hard to raise my head.
heck, its hard enough just to move it.

just now i was watching a movie and a concert.
for both things we sat through the hour and observed.
i swear i cudve felt like my head's gonna topple the moment i get off the seats.
just too hurtful la.

forget about it. im gonna sleep now. ciaossu.
and happy international friendship day^_^