27072010

Arif got poked by a sword.
Its all good people!
Arif's well alive and healthy.
Well, that's bad news for some people.
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I think I've been cursed.
Things i used to do, I do no more.
Its like my whole daily life routine is no more the same.
Am I sick?
Last time, last time I used to go and hang out in the clubhouse from class dismissal to sundown, maybe even later.
I used to walk down the path at Food Court 5 oh so everyday but i do no more.
I used to think life has its fixed culture.

But now I choose my own culture.
I choose a culture thats weird, but strangely happy.

When I think of the kind of person I should be now, I realised I come from a culture born from an open(well half the time) Muslim family, a malengchindian(rojak) language, a Singapore(kiasu) way of life, ruled under PAP(men in white), with Singapore's economic status(oh my god, is that fifty cents?!), and the Singapore Ministry of Education's teachings(brainwash).

I've faced all that facts myself.
Some of my friends are weird thus so am I.
My dad lets me choose what I want as a toddler thus I grew up being indecisive.
Heard the story of retrenchment as a 7 year old and was traumatised by it.
Even till now.

I wanna create my own culture. My way of life.

A person I met says I'm weird.
Then he uses a rubber band and shoots it at me.
SNAP
It hits my face.
My friends saw what he did but stayed down.
I simply looked at him.
Imagine what would've happened had I been my old self.
BLOODSHED man.
Sometimes it's hard to reason with humans.
With that guy who rubber band-ed me?
I think that guy was pretty lonely.
Oh well.

Had humans in this world know more kindness.
This is my wish to mankind.

26072010

Ah, my body's gonna break soon. For some reason for the past few days i felt like my bones could just snap any moment. I feel heavy, its like my muscles tend to not listen to what i tell them to do. This sucks, especially when you are in the midst of the peak time of work with many people counting on you. I cant even find a joke to crack. Ah, I'm gonna faint soon.

I have a confession to make. I'm tired. Sometimes even at home I feel like the whole world's my enemy. Sometimes I don't wanna go out of my room where I can't go to the toilet without getting lectured at. The days I'm working my ass off in my room and the moment I leave the room I'm called lazy, or smbody's grumbling that I'm not being helpful at all. I can't bloody help it. If I don't wanna go out then don't force me. I don't need you to stand there making me feel like I'm the villain of the house. I'm in my room so I can freaking improve myself so I can help the household in the future. Is that so damn difficult to understand?! I'm just sick of it all.

Shit la, I'm pissed oreadi. I need to cool down. Everyone gets moodswings. I need some pikachu. That's right, pikachu.

070710

URGH.
Sometimes I think assignments are living things.
They keep reproducing over and over again.
I'm starting to think humans and assignments can get married.
Oh well.

Nowadays I tend to go home taking the Joo Koon train if i leave school before 5.
Its obviously because I wanna sit down throughout my trip home.
Define "lazy" -> It is a term to describe Fadhils.
I don't expect too much from trains to leave me a seat.
That's why there are people like me who are will to use half an hour just to ensure he gets a seat from one end of the island to the other.
Well, me being a good guy(ahem) am willing to give up my seat for the one who needs it more than me. Aren't I a great person???(narcissist mode)

Ahhh.
My laptop's adaptor is broken.
I don't have time to go Jurong East to fix it.
So now I'm using my dad's laptop.
Isn't he nice??? (that's where my greatness came from)
And I reach home today, and there's actually food!
Mommy's awesome too!
Continuing on to me lappy,
I can't access to my anime, music and so.
Worse of all, I can't access to my schoolwork.
It feels like I just got hit by a Hadouken.
So I'm doing what I can to make up for it.
Speaking of which, blogging does not count as "all I can"

ok random pic and off I go^^

04062010

hurray.
mst is coming and as usual i find time to blog around.
i cut my hair recently, and i think its a little weird?
i wonder what's your opinion?

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anyway,
during periods like these are when we students think of doing outings.
and "like these" i mean test periods.
well, some do and some dont,
but i sorta cant wait for the activities to do after the tests
..... only if there were any.

just around a week ago or less i went out with some of the wushu peeps,
also stayed in school late and went home with random ppl- i mean other ppl



but at the end of the day, i forgot that i was supposed to be studying.
congratulations myself.
well, here i am distracting myself from reality.
speaking of reality, do you know that lion's are lazy?
yes, and bananas are blue.
okok fine.
i'll blog summore if i have to.

ciaossu.

ME! ME! ME! 26052010

ok im bored.
so today's post shall be about nothing but myself.
im a narcissist!(for today- ah fine publicly for today)

ALL ABOUT ME





Favourites

- Colour: Red
- Fruit: Durian
- Animal: Lion
- Band: Muse
- Singer: Rossa
- Actor: Johnny Depp
- Actress: Erika Toda
- Sport: Can't decide
- Game: Final Fantasy IX
- Drink: Air Katira(Katira Drink, mostlly found in mosques)
- Movie: Spiderman 3
- Anime: Hayate No Gotoku!
- Brand: Nike(Sorie Ashraf)
- Food: Whooper
- Hobby: Exploring



i know i waste time a lot.
and i know im extremely lazy.
i can be emo at times, but im actually just bored of life
sometimes, i think i look fierce, well, maybe not.
i AM trying to be fiercer so the children at my club can become better ppl.
actually, im afraid of heights... and balloons.
(not counting the common fear of humans)
i enjoy listening to my friend's sweet voice.
sadism i do pretty much a lot.
i dont really like hanging out for too long.
getting homesick is trouble for me.
i shiver easily.
being near a certain someone, i feel troubled yet safe.
i enjoy joking with my friends(thats what friends are for)
porn i do NOT do.(jZ, u hear me!?)
i get irritated easily.
but im actually pretty tolerant.
i cant stand disrespect.
NOW IM GETTING HIGH.

well of course, a narcissit's gotta do what a narcissist's gotta do.
anyway, ive ignored "YOU" all the way.
its all about me in this post.
its actually pretty fun to find out about urself.
gotta try it.

CIAOSSU!

11052010

I don't feel like I'm going to be 19 this year.
I feel younger.
Although I gotta admit age is catching up to my body.
That's how I realise I'm not very young any more.
It's not nice, not pleasant to realise this.
If I could, I would stay a kid forever.
There are things I could do 10 years ago I can't do now.

Many things happened during this period, but I'm lazy to say them all so I'll summarise everything short.
- Overseas Industrial Training Programme
- Outings
- Trainings
- Grad nite
- CCA drive
- Freshmen Orientation Camp
- Barclay's Premier League

Yea, these things happened.
Time moves quickly when you'd least expect it to.
You meet new friends.
To some its hi-5, to others its goodbye.

Now, there's someone I'm worried about.
That person has an issue that may result in that person leaving for good.
Every time I'm near that person, I'd feel happy.
If that person's gone, I wouldn't know how to feel.
That person won't know how I feel.
Because that person is so near, yet so far.

haiz.

29012010

im too tired to sleep.
its not uncommon, well, i just got back from training.
my friends say they also cant sleep after training.
funny, the world is.

now im blogging, happily waiting for a frozen milo to melt completely.
some reports are completed, others are still in delay.
but this week is the most exhausting week since the start of school.

im tired.
i need more sleep.
my mind is all mixed up rite now.
i must've been too bored since morning.

anyways,
there's this game or so,
that i spread around my friends.
some forgot i started it.
or rather they thought it existed long time ago.
its nothing special, its basically rating the pretty girls around us from 1-10.
well, im a guy.
i do that sometimes.
so this morning on a pleasant way to school.
i thought there would be "nice views" on the train.
so i sat in the train, bouncing at pasir ris as i wanted to get a seat.
so i sat.
seconds flew by.
seconds turned to minutes.
and then i told myself.
what happened to the 7-pointers? the 7 and above angels?
the whole train journey became completely dull as i desperately looked around for a single ray of hope.
there were only elderly ladies, 6 and below pointers, and males.
disappointed, i leaned back on my seat.
the train is sooo full, i thought.
the train is sooo slow, i thought again.
can the train be slow with the presence of 9 pointers instead? (nononono, aint possible)
after a gruelling journey, my stop arrived.
i squeezed through the packs of people and caught a glimpse of a 7 pointer, sitting directly oppposite me.
well, i was blocked so i couldnt see.
she had a sweet face, and thats all.
that made my day.

ok, im gonna play restaurant city.
gambatte, everyone...