Oasis
Stop Crying Your Heart Out
Hold up... hold on... don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile... Shine on... Don't be scared
Your destiny may keep you warm.
Cos all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worry you'll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Get up... Come on... why you scared
You'll never change what been and gone
Friday, November 27, 2009
Saturday, November 21, 2009
21112009
GAH!
seeing how its like,
there will be many things that will have to be done.
even though there are many things that are done,
there will still be more appearing.
in things endless road,
when will anything ever sort out for itself?
its like walking in an endless cave.
when the cave gets steeper,
we complain.
thats when our values come in.
whether it means to be a human or a machine,
no one has the right to judge which is better than the other.
the days get colder and i wanna be out there.
maybe just standing there.
or probably sitting here.
i dunno.
it gets more interesting.
understanding the situation,
reading between the lines,
knowing what the demands are,
its all the same.
its very fun.
i wonder who'll understand this.
i hope its able to be understood.
because not many will understand,
what this is truly is,
or who is it for.
smile always ^_^
seeing how its like,
there will be many things that will have to be done.
even though there are many things that are done,
there will still be more appearing.
in things endless road,
when will anything ever sort out for itself?
its like walking in an endless cave.
when the cave gets steeper,
we complain.
thats when our values come in.
whether it means to be a human or a machine,
no one has the right to judge which is better than the other.
the days get colder and i wanna be out there.
maybe just standing there.
or probably sitting here.
i dunno.
it gets more interesting.
understanding the situation,
reading between the lines,
knowing what the demands are,
its all the same.
its very fun.
i wonder who'll understand this.
i hope its able to be understood.
because not many will understand,
what this is truly is,
or who is it for.
smile always ^_^
Sunday, November 1, 2009
01112009
staring at my notes, i suddenly think about life... and yet again.
i realised i spent around 2 hours or less with them.
the rest of the day i wasted playing my games.
that told me what my life was worth if i had a free day.
its worth 2 hours of knowledge, 15 hours of gaming, and 7 hours of sleep.
in short, worthless.
i never really thought of what i wanted when i grew up.
its all the simple mindset of "get a good job, get married, get a life"
getting a good job is already like a 50 storey wall in life.
you gotta study and everything just to do so.
its a troubling obstacle which brainwashes you from young.
next is getting married.
looking at my cousin's wedding photos, i didnt realise that i was tearing.
i dont know why.
was i too miserable?
i think it happened when i looked at my cousin's happy face.
she was smiling brilliantly.
it occured to me of how happy she was at the moment.
it was happiness.
i guess i teared cos i hadnt known if i'd experience something like she did.
and it all sums to the part about getting a life.
the last part is basically fulfilled if i got the first 2.
well, i dont have too great of ambitions.
i guess while im still young, i wanna be the best i can.
before i get carried away let me remind myself im reaching my sleeping time.
ok.
feel free to comment about anything u wanna tell me about ur life.
i'll readily read/listen as a friend.
(btw hayate's birthday is on the 11th ^o^) random
i realised i spent around 2 hours or less with them.
the rest of the day i wasted playing my games.
that told me what my life was worth if i had a free day.
its worth 2 hours of knowledge, 15 hours of gaming, and 7 hours of sleep.
in short, worthless.
i never really thought of what i wanted when i grew up.
its all the simple mindset of "get a good job, get married, get a life"
getting a good job is already like a 50 storey wall in life.
you gotta study and everything just to do so.
its a troubling obstacle which brainwashes you from young.
next is getting married.
looking at my cousin's wedding photos, i didnt realise that i was tearing.
i dont know why.
was i too miserable?
i think it happened when i looked at my cousin's happy face.
she was smiling brilliantly.
it occured to me of how happy she was at the moment.
it was happiness.
i guess i teared cos i hadnt known if i'd experience something like she did.
and it all sums to the part about getting a life.
the last part is basically fulfilled if i got the first 2.
well, i dont have too great of ambitions.
i guess while im still young, i wanna be the best i can.
before i get carried away let me remind myself im reaching my sleeping time.
ok.
feel free to comment about anything u wanna tell me about ur life.
i'll readily read/listen as a friend.
(btw hayate's birthday is on the 11th ^o^) random
Thursday, October 22, 2009
22102009
life is unpredictable.
when we thought we have seen everything,
something happens to let us realise,
we know nothing.
as far as our mind opens up to,
or as closed as our mind shuts itself,
there is a door which controls the mind.
once upon a july, i was born.
i grew up in an environment that failed to teach me how to survive.
so i learnt about deception, lies, hatred, sorrow, all on my own.
i grew up hating the world.
at the same time i knew.
i could not hate the world.
the biggest lie i ever told,
was that i despise the life i had been given.
i grew up lonely.
i failed as a friend.
i failed as a leader.
i failed as a son.
however, people still believed in me.
whether doubtful or not they did.
i failed myself.
i lost my sense of belonging.
i am not even worth a cent or half of it.
i do not believe in myself.
no.
i have to throw away this unworthy me.
i cannot let anyone down anymore.
i cannot waste the life god has given me.
i cannot let go of the trust people have in me.
i cannot submit to myself that has given up all hope.
because.
i know nothing.
i need you.
when we thought we have seen everything,
something happens to let us realise,
we know nothing.
as far as our mind opens up to,
or as closed as our mind shuts itself,
there is a door which controls the mind.
once upon a july, i was born.
i grew up in an environment that failed to teach me how to survive.
so i learnt about deception, lies, hatred, sorrow, all on my own.
i grew up hating the world.
at the same time i knew.
i could not hate the world.
the biggest lie i ever told,
was that i despise the life i had been given.
i grew up lonely.
i failed as a friend.
i failed as a leader.
i failed as a son.
however, people still believed in me.
whether doubtful or not they did.
i failed myself.
i lost my sense of belonging.
i am not even worth a cent or half of it.
i do not believe in myself.
no.
i have to throw away this unworthy me.
i cannot let anyone down anymore.
i cannot waste the life god has given me.
i cannot let go of the trust people have in me.
i cannot submit to myself that has given up all hope.
because.
i know nothing.
i need you.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
13092009
Can you still see your dreams in the distant, starry sky?
Are they more vivid than they were when you were little?
When one forgets to put the emotions that overflow in one’s heart
to rest,
they burn the color of passion.
I used to believe without a doubt that I could reach my dreams,
no matter how far off they were.
But that me from long ago now sleeps inside my heart.
Dreams are more fragile and fleeting than a glass rose,
so then why are we destined to dream?
Sometimes two dreams can turn into love,
but there are also times when they can't.
Even when they're alone,
people want to share their feelings,
but it can be so hard.
Words are powerless to express one's feelings,
and sometimes they become a silver knife.
Are they more vivid than they were when you were little?
When one forgets to put the emotions that overflow in one’s heart
to rest,
they burn the color of passion.
I used to believe without a doubt that I could reach my dreams,
no matter how far off they were.
But that me from long ago now sleeps inside my heart.
Dreams are more fragile and fleeting than a glass rose,
so then why are we destined to dream?
Sometimes two dreams can turn into love,
but there are also times when they can't.
Even when they're alone,
people want to share their feelings,
but it can be so hard.
Words are powerless to express one's feelings,
and sometimes they become a silver knife.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
09092009
the things that we normally think about normally involve studies, relationships, entertainment so on and so forth.
dont we find thinking of something we dislike strange, or weird?
sometimes because of such things we dislike, allows us to change.
its like overcoming your weakness.
u my hate a certain subject thus u suck at it.
so u study hard to make it better.
at the end of the day, u realise that u had done well for ur hated subject.
and so u have achieved something.
well, if u dislike something u may have a negative effect on it, of course.
take me for example.
hate working.
keep lazing.
then penniless.
BUT there are people who are still happy hating stuff.
maybe because its part of their personality.
u can find others hating something attractive too.
like in comics, the ladies love the justice men who hates evil.
or how guys find girls hating bugs cute.
hey, as a guy, im no different.
i like thinking up stories that maybe go beyond the boundaries of possibilities.
although scientifically, they make sense.
there are also times i dream about being in a love story, no joke.
the worst love dreams are those which im about to kiss the girl(omg) then suddenly wake up.
its like when i wake up, AAAAAAAAA.
but its these dreams that allow me to think of what may happen in real life.
i hate dreaming in a relationship, but i dont mind living it.
the good things are always hardest to get, and at the end when you get it u be at the happiest.
what comes next?
emptiness?
noooo.
its called appreciation.
never forget how it felt before aquiring the thing u want.
always remember the path u took to find it.
i dont believe in "forgive and forget" because u'll end up making the same mistakes.
"forgive and forget" were probably created by those who dont want grudges.
maybe theyre afraid of the other party.
if u hate smtg, think positive.
think differently, and u'll have smtg waitng for u at the end of the road.
dont we find thinking of something we dislike strange, or weird?
sometimes because of such things we dislike, allows us to change.
its like overcoming your weakness.
u my hate a certain subject thus u suck at it.
so u study hard to make it better.
at the end of the day, u realise that u had done well for ur hated subject.
and so u have achieved something.
well, if u dislike something u may have a negative effect on it, of course.
take me for example.
hate working.
keep lazing.
then penniless.
BUT there are people who are still happy hating stuff.
maybe because its part of their personality.
u can find others hating something attractive too.
like in comics, the ladies love the justice men who hates evil.
or how guys find girls hating bugs cute.
hey, as a guy, im no different.
i like thinking up stories that maybe go beyond the boundaries of possibilities.
although scientifically, they make sense.
there are also times i dream about being in a love story, no joke.
the worst love dreams are those which im about to kiss the girl(omg) then suddenly wake up.
its like when i wake up, AAAAAAAAA.
but its these dreams that allow me to think of what may happen in real life.
i hate dreaming in a relationship, but i dont mind living it.
the good things are always hardest to get, and at the end when you get it u be at the happiest.
what comes next?
emptiness?
noooo.
its called appreciation.
never forget how it felt before aquiring the thing u want.
always remember the path u took to find it.
i dont believe in "forgive and forget" because u'll end up making the same mistakes.
"forgive and forget" were probably created by those who dont want grudges.
maybe theyre afraid of the other party.
if u hate smtg, think positive.
think differently, and u'll have smtg waitng for u at the end of the road.
Friday, September 4, 2009
04092009
how does not being able to feel a thing feel like?
nothingness.
no joy, no sorrow, no love, no hate.
it doesnt feel right.
its as if you have no purpose in this world.
people exist for a purpose.
and the way they meet their purpose is through destiny.
as long as people are humans, theres no such thing as an empty shell.
even the most boring of humans would have a name.
freedom from emptiness is even better than freedom itself.
is this really the so-called lying to yourself?
cos as far as im concerned, ive lied alot.
even if my friends accept me the way i am, i change.
not that i want to.
i just do.
in time i just dont feel accepted.
its like i entered the wrong room although the door leads to my destiny.
i dont wanna be like this.
the weakling that i am.
the one who'll give up on smtg just because i think i cant do it alone.
the one who puts up a tough front but is really hurt.
the one who takes too much time thinking the unnecessary.
i looked at her across the cabin.
although we were barely 2 metres apart,
it felt like i was watching her from the sun.
when i said something, she couldn't hear me.
when i called her, she didn't answer.
when i looked at her, she wouldn't look at me.
are we just too far apart?
have i created a barrier only i can see?
are my words just meaningless to what i feel?
so i turned, and silenced myself in despair.
Happy birthday to my little sister btw if ure reading this.
nothingness.
no joy, no sorrow, no love, no hate.
it doesnt feel right.
its as if you have no purpose in this world.
people exist for a purpose.
and the way they meet their purpose is through destiny.
as long as people are humans, theres no such thing as an empty shell.
even the most boring of humans would have a name.
freedom from emptiness is even better than freedom itself.
is this really the so-called lying to yourself?
cos as far as im concerned, ive lied alot.
even if my friends accept me the way i am, i change.
not that i want to.
i just do.
in time i just dont feel accepted.
its like i entered the wrong room although the door leads to my destiny.
i dont wanna be like this.
the weakling that i am.
the one who'll give up on smtg just because i think i cant do it alone.
the one who puts up a tough front but is really hurt.
the one who takes too much time thinking the unnecessary.
i looked at her across the cabin.
although we were barely 2 metres apart,
it felt like i was watching her from the sun.
when i said something, she couldn't hear me.
when i called her, she didn't answer.
when i looked at her, she wouldn't look at me.
are we just too far apart?
have i created a barrier only i can see?
are my words just meaningless to what i feel?
so i turned, and silenced myself in despair.
Happy birthday to my little sister btw if ure reading this.
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